It Started Like This

Grabe, if i would be asked to define my life i would say, its like one of those teleserye in a noon time show. I am always controversial but i never thought i would go far like this.

Im with this guy right now. He was a friend who eventually is at the right place at the right time when my heart was in pain. We kinda have spark and i really feel comfort, happiness, and love when im with him. And time really flew fast. It was june 26 when i bought two brands of pregnancy test, both became positive. So tadah! Im preggy! I texted him immediately and i got no response. I spent 3 hours in the bathroom and cried a lot. A lot of things flashed by my head. But the “usual me” slapped my emotions away. Ok, im always strong and should continue to be like that. I wiped my tears and acted as if nothing happened. I know i need to calm my self first before i could be able to make a plan. I did my chores, fixed my bed, brought my laundry to the shop and went to an internet shop to distract myself. Then i got a text message from him and he said he’s on his way to my dorm. Such a relief i almost cried. Good thing that every one is busy in the computer cafe and nobody noticed my tears. Then he came. We went out to eat and to discuss what to do.

We are not prepared for this. We talked about this a million times and still can’t figure out what to do. He searched for a doctor over the net and he told me we should go to the doctor’s clinic because i need a prenatal check up. And so we did at july 4. The doctor asked me questions, which i already have an answer. Im a nurse and im familiar with these. So that went pretty fine. I kinda got excited and is begining to think of how i would be months after. July 5, we became decided and with conviction we stand to pursue this pregnancy and be good parents. I knew we will be, of course, im not a murderer!

Sorry guys but please let me continue my story tomorrow. I can’t stay up late.