My Glittery Mind

Days ago i was so emotional and my bf is having a hard time dealing with me. I probably made him go nuts with the things i said. Lol. I myself was kinda feeling weird. I know i’m going through a lot but im miss sunshine. Im the type of the person who weeps but go on with a positive outlook in life. But what happened was i became paranoid and cried a lot. I was begining to be a pessimistic which is not helping me nor my partner. After getting tired of crying i saw the box of duphaston. The drug that my OB prescribed me. I don’t know what has gotten into me but i just search the internet and discovered the reason for the drama. It says that the side effect of this drug includes allergic skin rash, abdominal pain, hemolytic anemia, alterations in liver function and MENTAL DEPRESSION. So the chemicals are taking over me, plus add the fact that a pregnant woman have hormonal imbalance.

After that we had a talk. He’s also freaking out and can’t finish his reports and stuffs. I made him worry to much. He is by the way a 5th year engineering student and his prelims are on next week. He said that everything that he’s doing is for us. Aw sweet! He may not always talk about how he feels, most men are really like that, but he’s expressing it with actions that made me guilty because i know im stubborn at times.

Im trying to control my mind and not to let emotions to take on me. I have to be positive because people around me are also affected. This is hard but i know God made this happen for a reason. And there is still a reason for me to be happy cause it’s our monthsarry today! Im happily inlove with a man, a real one this time